The New Year

     Perhaps it’s an ordained fact that I am sitting here in total darkness writing this blog.  Perhaps it’s just a matter of luck that I am awaiting the new year alone while my four-year-old daughter sleeps peacefully in her room.  The neighbors have blasted fireworks since the sun set, and I am annoyed that my glass of wine is empty.  I am lazy, annoyed, tired, and I can’t help but feel nauseated watching the New Year’s Eve coverage on both major networks.  It seems that every year the performances and the interviews are lamer and falser.  I guess I will have to get up and reach for another glass of wine, but I am not sure what to do to pass time.  Sure, I could have been in Miami celebrating with family, but we moved to Central Florida to get away from the cost of living and the unbelievably corrupt city that we called home for several years.  It has been eleven years since we made the move, and once again here I am alone, drinking a glass of wine all on my own because my husband had to work.  Perhaps it was meant to be this way, but I have yet to get used to bringing in the new year on my own.

     It is a fact though, that I have a positive outlook for 2009.  What many of us have failed to realize that we are more alike than different.  We are all experiencing financial hardships, we are all alone at one time or another, we are all looking to fill our glasses, but we do not fail to realize is that hope is the only way to a better tomorrow.  It was that “HOPE” that brought us together on November 4, 2008 and it will be that “HOPE” that will pull our lives together.  We must struggle.  We must fall.  We must climb.  We must cry.  But we will never look back and mope around our failures, we will recoup and move on.

     Perhaps, it was an ordained biographical scripture that I sit here alone, but I am positive that my loneliness is a message that I must remain calm if I fall.  I must remain strong for my daughter.  I must not stumble to fill my glass or those of others.  I must keep my chin up in spite of the hardships that 2008 brought me.  In fact, I may not be used to being alone during New Year’s Eve, but I am used to the hopeful persistence of my ordained spirit.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!